Keep Me In Your Heart (song)

The music is not specific to PD. I'm a music fan and some mornings I share a few songs.

This morning I'm just feeling invisible, misunderstood and missing. Friends have moved on with their lives,

With a look of ease drawn on my face, it's easy to misread my feelings as lack of concern. I do worry and I do care. Stuck inside myself. 

Stiffness and pain. Frozen. 

I miss me. 
 

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